Permission Granted

Starting in November or December for the last several years, I start to take stock of the year wrapping up, the lessons learned, the wins and celebrations. It’s become a meditation of sorts to count my blessings every chance I get.

This past year wasn’t just any old year, however. It was the close of a whole decade, a chance to think through how far I’ve come over all that time.

And you know what? I had zero desire to reflect on the last year let alone the last ten. It was a tough year for me emotionally, and they seem to be getting tougher. I discovered I am an empath, one who absorbs the energy of people around me 24×7. And considering that I’ve also become somewhat of a news junkie – and well, just LOOK at the headlines – you get an idea of the energy that I’ve absorbed.

Case in point, I didn’t write that much this past year. Part of me didn’t feel so compelled to share what’s been on my mind, and a huge part of me just wanted to come home and simply hug my dog, just to feel better inside. It was a different kind of therapy and it worked in a sense.

So this year? I’ve given myself permission to just move forward. I know exactly what I need to do. No need to dwell on lessons learned. Just LIVE in a manner that propels me forward toward the people and experiences I love.

Come to think of it, this “move forward” approach to the new year is certainly one way to cultivate a practice of mindfulness in the here and now.

What about you? Does the thought of examining the past to plan your future weigh you down? Then don’t do it. Leave the past where you left it. You have permission to go forth into the new year totally unencumbered.

Enjoy the freedom. Happy new year, indeed.

Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash

Author: silonda

I'm not your average Midwestern American woman: an older mom to three kids and married to a musician, hiding out in a small town. I’ve worked as a serious business professional my entire adult life but my soul is really an artist. Wonderlust (i.e., insatiable curiosity) and wanderlust lead me to read voraciously and travel often. The introvert in me likes to quietly observe and share what I discover through writing but buried inside is a pretty funny chick full of spunk and verve who is eager to come out and play. Deep thinking and feeling (all the feels) is my default mode and then I'll crack a joke about it. I’m constantly striving to cultivate whatever makes for beautiful and to love UP.

2 thoughts on “Permission Granted”

    1. I recently came across a podcast that talked about how sometimes we need people to serve as “validation vending machines”. Man, that line really struck me hard. It is a real skill to learn how to be satisfied with your intrinsic self-worth. Can’t say I’ve mastered it but I am trying too.

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