The Day After

Oh, America. Do I even know you anymore? Those first 50 years of my life…were you just courting me, on your best behavior all that time? But now, you’re letting your true colors shine?

evan-brockett-624367-unsplashI’m disappointed in the election results, I’ll be honest. I wanted to believe that most Americans were thoroughly disgusted with the direction Trump has taken this country and a true blue wave would overtake Congress but of course, results on this day after show how Republicans still control the Senate. I guess I didn’t follow it closely enough to know how many Senate seats were up for grabs this year and likely to actually flip. I knew it wasn’t many, but still. Texans are actually sending smarmy Ted Cruz back to the Senate? Seriously?

It is nevertheless encouraging to learn that 100 women will sit in the House of Representatives, including a respectable increase in minority women of race, ethnicity, and creed. It’s about time. Maybe one day I’ll actually see women in the majority in the House, but I’ll take this historic win for now.

Trump has wasted no time, has he? Holding a ridiculous, disrespectful, sneering, self-congratulating press conference, facing a press corps that doesn’t call bullshit on his boldface lies, more lies perpetrated by the White House regarding CNN reporter Jim Acosta’s line of questioning today, accusing him of assaulting an aide when video clearly shows the aide attempting to yank the microphone from Jim’s hands. He never laid a hand on her. Jeff Sessions getting fired or offering his resignation. Ha, I had even added an entry in our family calendar weeks and weeks ago, to remind me that Trump would do that today (2nd line down in the picture provided). Not to forget the immediate img_0384-2appointment of an individual who is a threat to the Mueller investigation.

The current president, his posturing, and his lies are so predictable. And so, I suppose, was the outcome of this election. I had truly hoped America would crawl out from under its rock and emerge as the leader of the free world once again. I wanted to show the world that we do have a better nature and have returned to it. I wanted to restore the world’s faith in us and our ability to lead the way. Instead we collectively emboldened the evil in the White House.

My God, they should burn the place down after he’s out of there. He has desecrated it that much.

I have friends who are hopeful. I try so hard to be hopeful, to be positive, but I just don’t know anymore. I feel like America showed me her true nature. Floridians, Georgians, Texans, and Ohioans told me they prefer hate, fear, and greed in their governors. I don’t know that I want to live here anymore but I don’t know where to go.

In closing, I’ll share this poem offered up by my friend Teresa. I found the words to be powerful. I needed them. Maybe you do too.

Oh, my dear ones.
I know you were hoping
For a once-and-done.
For an earthquake,
A tidal wave.
Hoping that if we gave it our all,
A single push would be enough.
That after this, we could
Sink
Back into complacency,
Back into the comfort of our privilege.
I confess, in the secret corners of my heart,
I wanted to believe it could be that easy
That justice would emerge as from an egg
Fully grown
Not with wet down and weak wings…

But beloveds,
We are chipping away at a mountain,
Not a boulder.
Calcified structures
Created to oppress,
Control,
Kill.
2000 years of this stupid idea
That some are worthy,
Some deserve power by virtue of who they are.

Erosion is slow work, sweethearts.
Celebrate the progress
The triumphs.
Celebrate also the heartbreaking almosts.
Breathe.
Rest for a time.
Then get up and turn again toward kindness,
Toward your neighbor in need,
Toward those who are still trapped in the stone.
Tell them, “I won’t give up.”
Tell them, “I am with you.”
Tell them, “For you, I will learn to eat rocks.”
“For you, I will keep chewing, keep grinding,
Until the mountain crumbles to dust.”

-Elizabeth Stevens

Photo by Evan Brockett on Unsplash